Let Me Hurt
I heard a song playing in the background of a show I was watching, and it spoke to my soul and my spirit. I started thinking again of a wound that I just recently realized was not healed.
We all experience hurts and carry the pain with us deep within our soul where we bury it, usually has a coping mechanism. We sometimes express this pain on the outside through anger, depression, anxiety, and isolation just to name a few anchors of hurt. Trying to lift the weight of those anchors that hold us down in our hurt is too much for anyone to do alone. We all need God, and other people who love God in our lives to help. For many of us though, we find asking for help or allowing others to help as shameful or as a weakness.
The lyrics to the song, really outlined for me not just where I have been, but also where I have seen those I love, end up, or remain anchored. The song is, Let Me Hurt by Emily Rowed. (It plays in the background during an episode of Sweet Magnolia). Here is the first verse, maybe you can relate or know someone who can:
I am unfolding
I am not holding on
Shattered in pieces
I am the broken one
If you only knew the chaos
Inside my head
Wish that I could run but I’m just
not ready yet
I have been where she is talking about. Holding on to my brokenness; sometimes knowingly and other times unknowingly until that hurt is triggered. It almost feels safer to sit in that pain than to try dredging up those anchors. The next verse of the song really helps build a case for why it’s important to seek after a relationship with God. We cannot truly build up the strength to truly heal wounds as deep as the ones implied in this song without a genuine relationship with Jesus.
Just let me hurt a little longer
I’m in a war with no armor
Need to cry an ocean before I’m
The song goes on just indicating more mindsets we take on to keep us anchored in bondage by our relational pain. What struck me about the second verse was the line that said, I’m in a war with no armor. In Ephesians 6:10, you will find detailed instruction on putting on the full armor of God to protect and prepare yourself for any battle the enemy may instigate with you or those you love. I thought it was so interesting that the song indicated someone broken, unsure of where to go or what to do or how to rebuild from a place of such brokenness who was yet very mindful of the fact, she had no armor to protect her. Think about that for a moment.
In the book of Joshua, before the Israelites are going to head into the Jordan river to claim Canaan, God tells them three separate times to “Be strong and courageous”.
Each time he says this, there is a different meaning. My personal favorite is the third use of that phrase. Let me see if I can put it in “today” terms for you. God is speaking and basically letting Joshua and the Israelites know that life can be full of challenges, sorrows, and tough decisions. However, he is telling them in this use of be strong and courageous based on the Greek translation of the Hebrew words:
Be Strong = press on and Courageous = secure and brave in the LORD.
God is literally saying, I am, and I will be with you through it all and I will get you through it all. I will not fail you like others in your life have. I will not abandon you like others have. I will not knock you down. I will not leave you broken on the ground. Seek after me, call on me, tell me all about it and I will restore, rebuild, and renew you. With me there is no need to hurt a little longer.
Be Strong and Courageous to seek out and put on your full armor of God.
Be Strong and Courageous to surrender all and completely to the Lord, our Savior all your brokenness.
Be Strong and Courageous to trust God to heal all hurts and restore you to the child of the One True King.
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